Your Mental Health Is Not a Shameful Secret

By Alison TedfordFebruary 16, 2017

“I don’t care if the world knows what my secrets are!”

These powerful words form part of Mary Lambert’s song “Secrets.” I listened to the song with my seven-year-old son in the car, and he piped up from the backseat, “If everyone knows what her secrets are, they aren’t really secrets, are they?” I told him that’s the point. I understand where Mary is coming from as an artist because it’s where I’m coming from as a writer too. I have written openly about my struggles with eating disorders, depression, and anxiety. I have done so deliberately — for a number of reasons.

Sharing my story helps me fight isolation. Mental illness can be so isolating — and isolation is one of the reasons many people don’t seek help. Sharing my struggles helps build community through empathy. Honesty is also humanizing. I don’t want anyone to feel alone, and I certainly don’t want to feel alone in my struggles. My writing is the way I use the buddy system.

When you are dealing with a mental illness, there can be an incredible amount of shame and embarrassment. Sometimes it’s hard to admit there’s a problem; it’s often easier if someone else goes first. When I write, it’s me going first.

I go first so someone can print out what I wrote and save it when they need encouragement.

I go first so someone can forward it and ask someone, “Hey, I’m having a hard time with this too. Can you help me?”

Hearing someone else open up about a similar struggle is reaffirming. It helps validate your own experiences. It reminds you that you’re struggling with a real illness and that other people have it too. It reminds you that there is treatment available and that hope is real.

Sometimes everything isn’t fine, and that comes through in what I write. I can’t face the world with a smile as fake as cheese in a can. That’s just not who I am. I am sans preservatives, unfiltered, unapologetic, and real. I want people to trust me, and that involves telling the truth about where I’ve been and where I am. I don’t want to contribute to a culture that only shows the highlight reel.


People will have a hard time relating to me if they think I’m perfect. I’m not offering anyone my true self in concealing my difficulties. We learn from the things we struggle against; we learn about each other and ourselves. Hiding the darkness that comes before the light is like being a travel writer that only talks about the final destination. We all know the substance and the real work happened throughout the journey.

Being open about the things I have trouble with can give hope to people who are experiencing similar adversity. My greatest success as a writer has been in writing about the things I’m passionate about, and one of those things is recovery. You can have an eating disorder, panic attacks, suffer from depression, and get yourself help. I’m proof that you can do all that and hold down a job, raise a baby, get an education, and help other people. There is life — abundant and exuberant life after darkness. Writing about what I’ve experienced can help prove that to be true.

Given the stigma surrounding mental health issues, it can feel impossible to share part of your story. I choose to discuss my own battles with mental health to fight isolation, share authentically, and to give hope. Secrets so often are associated with shame. In keeping these pieces hidden, I feel like I would be endorsing the view that mental illness is something to be ashamed of and it’s just not. I’m sharing part of my story in a healthy way, and that’s not something I’m going to keep in the dark. I don’t care if the world knows what my secrets are.

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  1. V

    Thank you so much for this.

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  2. Vera Naimoli

    Me too. My friends don’t fully understand. That’s OK. They find my honesty frightening because they worry about me. Having suffered from abuse and neglect as a child is frightening to those that abused and neglected me; that’s their problem. I will always speak my truth anyway.

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  3. Gabriella

    this has really helped show me that i can get through. thanks for sharing the truth! 🙂

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  4. Gabriella

    this has really helped show me that i can get through. thanks for sharing the truth! your so open with your story, its so inspiring! thanks again 🙂

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  5. Amanda Ganza

    We’ve all been through traumatic experiences in life im still struggling to find myself work n be a successful person, I have mental illness witch is bi polar and severe depression, I had a car accident a few months back had to take physical therapy I could’ve died but I didn’t my ex dumped me (comment removed due to content) when I was with him he always put me down made me feel I was hard to love or just a difficult person to be with…

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    1. Becky Ebert


      Please know that you are not alone in your struggles. We are encouraged by your bravery to speak out and share your experiences. You are not too hard to love. You are deserving of love and hope and help.

      We hope that you will email us at [email protected], if you wish to share more of your story. You can also seek out professional help via our local resources page:

      You are worthy of help. Please continue.

      With Hope,

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