I Didn’t Get Sober Because It Was a Trend
Eliminating drinking alcohol for four weeks does not equate to recovery—or understanding the challenges of recovery for that matter.
Topic: addiction
Eliminating drinking alcohol for four weeks does not equate to recovery—or understanding the challenges of recovery for that matter.
Most of my "ideals" or things folks call "resolutions" around this time of year aren't actually what I want for myself but are what I assume others want for me.
I’ll never forget that fateful May 20th, that day that began in such an ordinary way, when my son’s addiction finally took his precious life.
Ever since I was introduced to alcohol it became about getting more. Always more.
It took me years to recognize that my struggles with mental and emotional health were not marks against me as a mother.
I had never viewed my mother as an “addict.”
I still have days where I struggle with simply existing.
The thing about getting clean is that once you get out of rehab, no one’s getting paid to take care of you anymore. That is when the real work starts.
Even when we don’t want to take another step. Even when our hearts hurt. Even when it feels like the phone never rings and no one cares, we are enough.
A year ago I was hopeless, broke, and I wanted to die. I believed that at the age of thirty-six it was too late to make a life worth living. I was so scared of myself because I had no idea who I really was without drugs or alcohol.
Come on decades of therapy, do your thing. Come on endless sessions in rehab, remind me that I am more than my rage.
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