Love to Live
It’s hard to look back to those moments when I truly did not want to live. It’s difficult to admit you’ve had an honest desire to end your life.
Topic: suicidal ideation
You Are Not Your Thoughts
I’m no stranger to suicidal ideation. I hate calling it that, because it sounds so much more intense than what I feel, which is a passive wish to no longer exist.
Rainy Days and Dark Nights
None of this is easy, but it is worth it.
Before and After Depression
How you feel right now is not your forever.
The Will to Live
It’s time to start reminding ourselves why we’re alive in the first place, and what good can still come even in the midst of our darkest moments.
Here I Stand
Unweighted and unassuming, here I stand.
No Longer a Punchline
Nearly every day, I imagine the many ways in which I could die. Or I list off, in my head, the reasons why I should be dead.
For My Sanity
I learned how to call the hotline on my own. I learned how to Google the names fallen and the sites to go to for help and the cues to look for by myself.
Searching for Meaning While Struggling With Depression and Suicidal Thoughts
My point in telling you this story is to convey how I tried literally everything I could think of in order to rid myself of depression.
More Than a Diagnosis
I am more than a diagnosis, and I don’t have to pick between labels.
