A few months ago, I uttered these words to the headmaster of my younger son’s school: “My older son’s addiction has made me a better person.”
It was the first time I’d ever said that to anyone, including myself. It just came out.
And you know what? It’s true.
First of all, let me be crystal clear: As I’ve told people many times before, being the parent of an addict who also suffers from depression is something I wouldn’t wish on anyone. That scenario isn’t one that crosses your mind when you have a child. When you see that new human being you’ve created for the first time, you envision nothing but wonderful things for their future.
My hopes and dreams for my older son were, I imagine, the same ones almost every parent has for their child. That list included academic excellence, graduating from high school, going off to college, etc. Not on that list? Severe depression, a suicide attempt, dropping out of high school, and, ultimately, addiction.
My son was diagnosed with severe depression and an anxiety disorder at age 15. A few months later, while being weaned off an anti-depressant that wasn’t working for him, he took an overdose of that medication and aspirin. Luckily, my wife discovered what had happened in time for us to get our son to the hospital for treatment.
Depression was a huge struggle for my son. There were stays in psychiatric hospitals and many self-injury incidents. Therapy and prescribed drugs didn’t help him, so he turned to self-medication. The marijuana, prescription meds (not his), and heroin he used were all attempts on his part to feel “normal.” What started out as casual drug use eventually spiraled out of control a couple years later.
When I first learned that addiction had overtaken my depressed child, it was a nightmare for me. I thought it was a curse. Why? Because I used to be one of those people who believed the stigma that is so frequently associated with addiction and mental illness. I thought kids who attempted suicide and became heroin addicts couldn’t possibly come from a decent, suburban family. I thought a heroin addict wasn’t a worthy member of society.
Boy, was I wrong. And I got educated in a hurry.
I will never say that my son’s depression and addiction were a “blessing.” That would be a ridiculous statement. Certainly, I would rather we lived a more “normal” life, with memories of my son’s high school and college graduations locked away in my mind, instead of memories of psychiatric hospitals, deception, stealing, heroin withdrawal, rehab stays, and the like. That said, my son’s issues have turned out to be, to this point, anything but a curse.
Being the parent of a child with two different brain diseases has made me a more cognizant, sympathetic, empathetic, forgiving, caring, understanding, grateful person. It’s taught me to appreciate the little things in life and made me more aware that I should live in the moment instead of worrying about yesterday or tomorrow. It’s also taught me volumes about unconditional love.
This might sound kind of twisted to some people, but going through what I’ve gone through with my son has made the current me much kinder and gentler than the old me. Not only am I more willing to help people, I want to help people. I want people who are going through experiences similar to mine and my son’s to know that things can work out. There is no guarantee, of course. But there is hope. And you should never give up.
I have also become passionate about working to help break the stigma associated with addiction and depression. I blog about it. I post on Facebook about it. I tweet about it. I talk to people about it. The world needs to know: Addiction and depression are diseases that can happen to anyone.
People I know frequently tell me they can’t imagine how my wife, my son, and I made it through all the things we’ve been through over the last several years. Well, if you would’ve told me eight years ago what was in store for me and my family, I probably would’ve said “Uncle” and told you I wouldn’t be able to handle it.
But as I look back today, I was able to handle it. So was my wife. We were able to handle it together, as a team. And I believe we are better people because of it. I also believe our relationships with each other and with both our children are stronger as a result. It took a while, for sure, but never giving up on our son—or on each other—has paid off.
My wife and I may have a few more gray hairs and be poorer financially because of our son’s mental health issues. But we are emotionally richer because of them. And that’s not such a bad thing.
Postscript: As I write this, my son has been clean and sober for more than 20 months, and his depression is under control. He has his GED, a job, and a girlfriend he adores. Best of all, he laughs and smiles and enjoys life every day.
DOROTHY LAZICH
DEAN IS A SHINING STAR … A WONDERFUL EXAMPLE … A LESSON(S) HE IS TEACHING FOR ALL OF US TO LEARN … GOD BLESS HIM
Dean D.
Thank you for the kind words. Just trying to share my experiences to help others and offer hope.
Anonymous
Bravo. For being there for your son and being open to growing. Too many people judge and don’t understand.
Dean D.
Addicts aren’t bad people. They are sick people who need to get well. Not all people realize that. But if you are a parent of an addict, it becomes apparent very quickly.
rhonda
We are in early days yet, have just had to let go, so maybe he will ask for help.Very hard, but we have had to do tough love.Maybe one day he will come back to us.
carrie
For a split second I thought I wrote this about my own child…That was beautiful and well said…Thank you
Dean D.
Thanks, Carrie! I hope you and your son continue on your paths of recovery. Recovery for parents is just as important as it is for the addict.
Leslie
I am the mother of an addict my heart breaks everyday that my son doesnt get help. I appreciate your message and i do understand it. I am so happy to hear your son is clean I hope someday I will be able to share that kind of news.
sofia
My son is using a drug i dont know what it is he has lost so much weight . Im desperate dont know what to do
Maria Lawson
Thank you for posting this. I feel the same way. I was that exact person just like you before our sons addiction. Now I am a different person. There are so many people in the world hurting. They need help. Now I want to help them. There is hope. Rescue is possible!
Dean D.
Maria… Let’s keep spreading hope and breaking down the stigmas associated with addiction and depression. And, most importantly, helping people who need it.
Barb
Tomorrow will mark the one year anniversary of my son’s heroin overdose, which, by the grace of God he survived. He has had a couple stumbles along the way this past year, but is now 8 months clean and sober. Our story is so very similar to yours, thank you for sharing and bringing awareness to this mental Heath issue.
Dean D.
Barb… There’s a great new book out called “Beyond Addiction: How Science and Kindness Help People Change.” I love this passage from it:
“If we treat a stumble as a catastrophe or a sign that a person was not really serious about change, it’s not likely that she will keep trying. If we encourage her to learn from the experience and problem-solve how to do it differently next time, she will more likely try again.”
Please keep that in mind going forward. I wish nothing but the best for you and your son.
Annalisa Jackson
That your son has come so far is testament to the pair of you. Thank you for sharing
Dean D.
Annalisa… Thank you for reading. And for the kind words. It’s all about unconditional love.
Daniel Clark
As a “son” with the same issues, thank you for sharing this. You make a difference.
Dean D.
Thanks, Daniel. I decided years ago to take a negative that was dealt to me and my family and reframe it into a positive. I am passionate about making a difference.
Anonymous
I could of wrote this about my 22 year old daughter.NEVER GIVE UP!!
Dean D.
Amen. Never give up. Change and sobriety are possible. Nobody WANTS to be an addict. Their brains are just wired differently.
Laura
You must never give up.These kids need help.
Dean D.
Laura… In addition to not giving up, we need to break the stigma associated with addiction so that young people aren’t afraid or ashamed to seek help.
Anonymous
I could of wrote this about my 22 year old daughter.NEVER GIVE UP!!
Ginger
So happy for you and your family. Glad to hear your son is clean. Not good news here..my son was murdered in 2011…our only child.
Dean D.
Ginger… My thoughts and prayers go out to you. I am so sorry about your son. I will light a candle for him tonight. And thank you for your kind words about my family. We are grateful for every day our son is clean. One day at a time…
Taxpayer
Thanks for your post. Our daughter has struggled with depression for 3 years now. It was my greatest fear come true–that my child would inherit my disease.
The upside, if you can call it that, is I know what she’s going through. I can see what she sees. And I’ve been able to help her fight against it.
When she smiles and laughs, I feel as if God is blessing us. And fortunately, there are now more good days than bad.
Dean D.
I will keep your daughter and your family in my prayers. As a parent, it is tough to see your child suffer. My son used to constantly tell me, “I just want to be normal.” Thankfully, today, he is doing much better.
Brea
I think my mother could have written this. Now, she understands better that this can happen to anyone. Bravo to you for being supportive to your son and for joining those of us who seek to battle against the stigmas surrounding mental illness and addiction.
Dean D.
Brea… As a parent, when you first find out your child is suffering from addiction, it’s devastating. But you have to educate yourself and realize that it’s a DISEASE. Once you do that, coping becomes much easier. Not all parents “get it,” but I’m grateful that my wife and I did.
Evie
This means a lot to me because my brother has suffered something similar to this. We have not had the same story, we were “luckier” in the terms of drug usage and addiction. However I’m eternally grateful for you writing this because I don’t tell my friends why my brother isn’t at college, or why he’s still living at home despite him being an adult, and it’s hard. So thank you for writing this and putting it out there
Dean D.
Evie… I am sorry to hear about your brother. I hope he can find the right path soon. If you haven’t attended an Al-Anon meeting, I encourage you to do so. Talking about your situation with others who are experiencing the same thing does wonders for bringing about inner peace. Also, think about opening up a bit more to your friends. If you’re comfortable doing it, maybe tell one friend and see what kind of a reaction you get. I’m guessing it will be compassion. Hugs to you from Michigan. 🙂
Kathy
Great read. Gifts often arise from what appear to be ashes.
Dean D.
Thank you, Kathy. What you say is so true.
Anon
What did you do to help him through his addiction? My boyfriend who means everything to me is on a downward spiral and I’m so scared he won’t come back. He’s lied to me and kept things from me. Everyone tells me to give up but after everything we’ve been through its not that easy. His family doesn’t seem to care and would only freak out and say ‘well maybe he should go back to prison’ yet prison didn’t help him at all in the first place. I can’t send him back, but i cant watch him slowly kill himself. The treatment he’s going to doesn’t seem to work and his co workers have been bringing it to work. I need help and have no where else to turn. I need advice, and it sounds like you might have some.
Dean D.
I’m sorry to hear about your boyfriend’s situation. I can tell you what we did to help our son, and provide you with some resources, but I’m not sure this is the forum to do that in. (I’m not a doctor or therapist; I’m just a parent with experience. So I’d like to keep our conversation one-on-one if possible.) I don’t really want to post my email address here, but if you want to connect with me via my blog (search for My Life As 3D), I will be happy to get back to you and we can discuss.
Judy E
I have grown too… through the horror and chaos of living with the active alcoholism and addiction, through the doctor visits, the hospital stays and the rehab, through extended care, open AA Meetings and more Alanon meetings than I can count. My son is sober today. He has strung together many days of sobriety and is living and thriving again. I have so much more compassion these days. Recovery is a one day at a time process. Thank you for writing this. Hearing “me, too” helps.
Dean D.
Judy… Bravo on your son’s sobriety. And on your having survived it. Al-Anon is such a great resource. It allows us to share without being judged. More compassion is a good byproduct of a bad situation. We are stronger people because of what we’ve been through. 🙂
Anonymous
I too have learned this lesson of how to love unconditionally. Beautifully said.. Thank you for sharing your story
Renee C
Dean D.
Renee… I was so happy to be able to share my story on the TWLOHA blog. The world would be a better place if more people practiced unconditional love, wouldn’t it?
becca s
Thank you for this. Im the wife of an addict with depression and anxiety. Everyday is difficult, having trust, letting go of anger and trying to be sympathetic. My biggest struggle is understanding what i dont understand. I want to be supportive but often find myself getting angry first. Im happy to see that people get through these things together and to not give up on yourself and your loved one
Dean D.
Becca… I will keep you and your husband in my thoughts and prayers. I highly recommend two books: “Beyond Addiction: How Science and Kindness Help People Change” by Jeffrey Foote (and others) and “Clean: Overcoming Addiction and Ending America’s Greatest Tragedy” by David Sheff. I’m pulling for you. 🙂
KD
Can I ask what finally got your son’s depression under control? We are at a standstill with my daughter, have tried everything.
Dean D.
KD… We tried several medications, most of which didn’t work for our son’s depression. But we finally tried the “right” one. That medication, in combination with therapy, helped our son make a turnaround.
Anonymous
I hope that my own family (especially my mother) will be able to say the same as you one day. I thank them, and people like you, for not giving up. Thank you for sharing, and may you, your son and family continue to enjoy many beautiful smiles and laughter together.
Dean D.
I want to thank To Write Love on Her Arms for giving me the opportunity to be a guest blogger on their site. I have nothing but total respect for the organization, and to be able to share my words here was truly an honor. I also want to thank everyone who read my post, commented on it, shared it, etc. Addiction is a horrible disease and it gets a bad rap. The stigma associated with it needs to be broken down. I’m just trying to do my small part.
If you’d like to read more about my experiences as the father of an addict, please check out my personal blog at:
http://mylifeas3d.blogspot.com/
Peace.
Dean in suburban Detroit
Robyn suarez
Your words give me hope for a better tomorrow…….thank and bless you.
Donna Marie
“…The most beautiful things are those that madness prompts and reason writes.”
–Andre Gide, French author
1869-1951
Dean D.
Thanks for sharing that wonderful quote, Donna Marie. And thanks for reading my blog post. 🙂
Christine
It’s nice to know that I am not the only parent going through this . My son is an addict and has clinical depression , his father can’t cope ,and is embarrassed how our bight well educated chilld is a heroin addict . I agree you truly find the meaning of unconditional love in these situations . I am so pleased your son is clean and happy it gives me hope .
Dean D.
Thanks for reading, Robyn. There is hope. Don’t ever give up.
Veronica Kegel-Giglio
We refused to enable my drug addicted son anymore, and now he will not talk to me. I try to let him know that I love him, but he will not talk or respond. How often should I try to contact him?
Veronica Kegel-Giglio
We refused to enable my drug addicted son anymore, and now he will not talk to me. I try to let him know that I love him, but he will not talk or respond. How often should I try to contact him?
Nicole Broussard
This POST touched me in so many ways….. My husband took his life in 2006 & not a day goes by that I don’t think about him. He was a brilliant & successful man & was loved by so many. He was only 35 at the time & had a whole future ahead of him. I always knew he may have had an alcohol addiction but overlooked the drinking everyday. I guess looking back he was a “functioning alcoholic”, but there is nothing positive that evolves from this behavior. When work got to be stressful & dependency & depression kicked in, things began to crumble. He lost his job & life spiraled out of his control. To make matters worse, I reached out desperately to family & friends for help. In the process of trying to get Brent help, he was told that Bi-Polar depression runs in his family & that he quite possible could be suffering from the disease as well. I wish there was not such a STIGMA attached to that disease. After discovering this, he felt his life would never be the same, and he refused to be controlled by chemicals & medication. The irony of this is that he was a successful Chemical Engineer & knew how chemistry affects all things. I wished he would have been on board with therapy & medication, but he saw what he was experiencing as a “character flaw” down to his core. He refused to take medication or continue seeing a psychiatrist. I didn’t push the issue out of fear of losing him. Finally life seemed to turnaround, and he found another career and we were moving to Nashville, TN. I left to return to our home in Iowa never knowing that would be the last time I kissed & hugged my wonderful Husband. Brent took his life in our apartment in TN & my life along with our families changed forever. I love this site & the cause it supports. Addiction, depression, mental illness, suicide are not dirty secrets. Share, become aware!! Sincerely, Nicole Broussard
Anonymous
From where I’m at now, seems like it would be easy to say that this all made me a better person – if my son were 20 months clean. Doesn’t look like that is going to happen and no one in the family is better for this experience right now.
Kathy
Thank you for sharing Dean. My son has similar issues and is currently doing his fourth attempt in rehab. Your words are a comfort, I will try to remember them. Uts the hardest thing I have ever done.
Evonne
I could really use your advice talking one on one:( I’m 22 my boyfriend is 23 and suffering similair to your son and i don’t know what to do anymore.
Claire Biggs
Hi Evonne,
We encourage you to check out our Find Help page (twloha.com/find-help) or to reach out to us at [email protected].
BOZENA
THANK YOU FOR THAT LETTER….ME AND MY HUSBAND ARE HELPING MY ONLY SON GO THRU ADDICTION ….AND IT IS SO HARD ….AND ONLY PEOPLE LIKE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT WE ARE GOING THRU….THANK YOU AGAIN SO MUCH
Anonymous
Thank you for writing this. It was so helpful to me today. I am going through a similar circumstance.
Mom
We have been on a very similar journey for the past four years, and he just went into treatment on Tuesday with our 20 year old son. Thanks for sharing to know we are not on this journey alone.
Anonymous
thank you for sharing your story it gives me some hope. my daughter is a heroin, perception drug addict.I have been battling this with her for too many years. I’ve lost my daughter and grandchildren to this addiction, but I will never give up trying to get through toget. too has severe depression and severe anxiety/ panic attacks. she is currently homeless and the children are in permenant guardianship with my ex husband friends. I’m sick over all this. my ex has washed his hands of her and will just send her bubble quotes. I just can’t do that. it’s not just her life, but those precious children need a healthy clean mom. I never thought her addiction would mean she would lose her children she would never useand lose them. she was clean for four years and had my granddaughter and two years later my grandson. the second csection doc said she could have Percocet for pain. addiction back!! I know she loves those babies no one will ever tell me she doesn’t, but she is sick. people say she can’t live then and use!! I don’t understand it all by any means, but I know she loves them and the depression for not having them and the anxiety takes its toll. I’m trying to not have excuses because she needs help and only she can fight this demon, but I will never give up on my daughter. I will not enable her with money or bail outs because I know that just furthers her addiction, but live and sort to get clean yes! again thank you for Sharing. there is always a glimpse of hope. God bless your family
Anonymous
Those words hit home with me and what my son is going through. Severe depression, anxiety, cannibas use, and a devastating breakup with a girl has overcome his life. I know what you mean when you say it makes you a better person. I will never give up on my son. He means the world to me and it breaks my heart to see him so lonely and sad. I’m praying for his recovery and your post gave me more hope, knowing it can happen. Thank you.
Tess
My 28 year old son also has suffered from drugs, alcohol, depression and unfortunately suicide this past July. This disease happens to ALL walks of life AND like you it has also made me a better person. I pray your son continues to live a happy sober AMAZING life ! You are an amazing parent !
Tracey
Hi my son has been using drugs for about 15 years he is 26 now he started with pot now it’s also pills and what ever else he can get his hands on he stills from us and doesn’t even feel bad about it at all he is so deceitful when you confront him about something that has happened that you know he has done he will lie all the way to the end and then when you can prove he did it he will just say yea I did it and don’t know why he will say what ever he can to make you believe that he wants help and wants to change and then turn right around weeks maybe months later and do it again with no guilt regrets or feelings at all and try to make it out like its are fault he did it Im at the end of my rope with him he has lied stolen from his father and I grandparents ,sisters, friends I just don’t know what else to do could you give me any advice on how to help him before it’s to late thanks so much !!!!
Claire Biggs
Hi Tracey,
Thank you for your comment. We’re so sorry to hear about how your son is struggling right now. Would you please email us at [email protected]? We’d love to give you some encouragement and advice.
Karen
thanks for sharing, I needed to read and have hope today.
anonymous
such a touching story. I too am going through drug addiction with my teen son. My heart breaks and sometimes I feel like giving up, but I know God is in control and will one day put him on the right path. Your story gives me hope. Thank you. I am so happy for your story having a happy ending and please pray that mine does too.
Anne Marsman
I’m terribly worried that my son may commit suicide. He has no job and his marriage has finished. Debt collectors are after him. He has no money for food and is being evicted in 2weeks. I think he might be on ice!
Claire Biggs
Hi Anne,
We’re so sorry to hear about what you’re son is going through. We’d love to send you some encouragement and point you toward resources to help your son. Would you mind emailing [email protected]?
shelly
I am touched by your story and I too have a son that is 21, He was on ADHD medication from the age of 5 to 18 and stopped after graduating and has not let it be known in so many words that he is becoming addicted to meth. I have never seen him this mean, selfish and depressed. I cry everyday because I don’t know what to do. Everyone in our family just does not question his well being, they don’t really know what is going on, just me. He fights with me, he is always talking about ending his life, he cries all the time, little things make him violent and he runs off to his SO CALLED FRIENDS that just keep sticking needles in his arm when he goes to them when I wont give him any money. They use him for his vehicle and pay him with drugs, he stays away from his family and friends. I found a bag of needles in his pants pocket and threw them away when he was sleeping. He does not confront me about it. He has no job and his girlfriend doesn’t want to be with him anymore. I moved him 40 minutes away from everyone and he still finds a way there. I don’t know what to do, I don’t have anyone to talk to, I don’t know anyone that has been in this situation to help me, all i want to do is help him, I don’t want my son to die knowing there was something i could do. If there is anyone out there who can help me please, I just want to do what is best for him. I love him so much, it is tearing my world apart, I am always thinking the worst and cannot be happy in my own relationship because of this situation.
Jane
Thank you as I sit here and cry. My gorgeous 17 has turned to dabs and marjiuana and zanex . In the course of 4 months he cant live without it. Imam dying inside. I
Can’t get out of bed and my husband still trusts what he says even though I know he is lying.
We have a drug ” specialist ” that we have met with once and we go back in a few weeks. We cant get a clean drug test because he is a regular and you need 40 to clear it all out of his system. His old friends have left and the ” stoner club ” is the group that semi- cares about him. I can’t breathe. I literally can’t get out of bed. I just don’t know if I can do this. Depression and anxiety are rampant in his mental well being too.
How do I do this for another day? There is no light in my day without him. He left us so quickly. It is literally paralysing me with sorrow, disappointment and anxiety.
Any suggestions? Anything will help
Thanks
Jane
Claire Biggs
Hi Jane,
We’re so sorry to hear about your situation. Would you mind emailing us at [email protected]? We’d love to send some encouragement your way and point you to some resources.
rowena
nice story..im struggling at the moment with my 20 year old son..who has lapsed…sometimes you just want to.give up..but I think.it’s hard to.understand it’s definately a brain disease a change in.thinking patterns I think..it’s going to be a long road ahead..
concerned parent
Pam
Nice story ,I would love to know about enables I am soo guilty for this n his lies in can’t take much more !I can’t bring him home because he steels everything! I don’t know what to do he needs major help !
Lassie
Such a beautiful letter. May you be blessed. My angel nephew is struggling and it breaks my heart . The sweetest boy , how thos happened I do not know. Painful.
Nancy
Thank you for writting this! We are going through what we call hell right now with our son. He is in rehab and won’t talk to us. It is so painful , almost unbearable. I ( the mom ) am not able to sleep a full night or have a day when I don’t cry. Any advice for this time in my life ?
Claire Biggs
Hi Nancy,
We’re so sorry to hear about what you and your family are dealing with right now. Will you email us at [email protected]? We’d love to send you some encouragement.
Kris
I am driving home from dropping my son off at rehab. We have tried detox, outpatient and now residential. It’s been a quiet ride home. After fighting tooth and nail with the insurance company for three days I gave up and did self pay. I am exhausted and feel there is little chance for an addict without the support of family.
Penelope Barlow
I need people like you in my life because I have no one to help me fight this battle of mine with my two sons.
Valerie
Im happy for your son and your family.my daughter is 17 and has been using herion for the past ten months..she is currently in juvenile detention due to issues w drugs and getting up in the system. My husband and I don’t know what to do to help her.we have been her biggest advocate but still get thru to her. I think the system is terrible and there really isn’t enough programs unless you rich. Anyway your story was very encouraging and I pray that we will be in a good place someday.
Mary
How did you do it? I am going crazy. My son is 41, and I have been going through this for over twenty years.
Tiffany
So glad to hear that there is HOPE!!
Caroline James
God bless you all.I’m going through the same with my son and I know in my heart it will be alright one day.Staying strong as a family helps me and I know I’m so lucky to still have him.There’s a lot of families with the same problems it takes hard work and a lot of love but its all worth it in the end and everyone learns from it.I wish him all the very best for the future and believe he will make you very very proud x.
Mary Eustaquio
Help… my drug addict daughter just passed and my 25 yr old son has severe depression, anxiety and is also a heroin addict.. no money.. no resources.. what do I do??
TWLOHA
Mary,
We are incredibly sorry to hear of the loss of your daughter. Please know that we are thinking of you and your family throughout this difficult time.
So that we can learn more about you and your situation, and give you the best recommendations possible, would you email us at [email protected]?
In the meantime, we list resources available to you on our site here: twloha.com/find-help
Sending you hope,
TWLOHA
katrina chapa
thank you for sharing
randi alderson
we just found out our son is addicted and did an intervention after asking him once if he was using drugs…perhaps it was too quick…maybe it should have not been done until many many attempts to get him to admit he was using…but we did it this way and now he is angrier and vicious to us. Said it was the worst thing we ever could have done and he will never speak to us again. Needless to say it was a failed intervention and has made things worse as it is all in the open. He blames us for his wife now leaving. He had everything under control until his secret was exposed. We have also come to realize that he has some deep mental issues ..anxiety depression and i think possible bi polar but that is only my guess…never been diagnosed with anything. We thought all his strange behavior was drug inducted…but i think mental illness came first. I feel like i am going to die. I will never get through this. Everyone says i have to disconnect and only say you have to go to rehab. until then…we have nothing else to say. I literally don’t think i can get through this. Its been four days…from his secret being out…and today. We had a professional interventionist with us . we did everything that we read to make this successful…but in my sons case…it appears we made everything worse. I feel so guilty…he has sent numerous text messages with foul language and blaming us for ruining his life and his marriage. (he is a very successful businessman…two children and a wife that he has known since high school.) He is 35
TWLOHA
Hi Randi,
We hope that things have improved somewhat since you commented. We want you to know that you and your family are doing the right thing by encouraging your son to go to treatment where he can’t the help he needs for his addiction and depression and anxiety. It seems you already know of treatment options, but just incase, we list local resources here: twloha.com/find-help.
Please know that you can reach out to our team at [email protected]. We are not professionals, but would be happy to provide you with support and recovery options during this difficult time.
With Hope,
TWLOHA
Marie Davidson
You don’t say how he got clean and dry for 20 months. After 18 years my 35yo son went “cold turkey” and was clean and dry for 11months. Small mercies he’s not drinking again but is using IC and not taking his meds. He has Schitzoaffective Disorder anxiety depression, acquired learning disorder a learning difficulties. I too had the same dreams I had for his older sister who breezed through school and completed a double degree. I feel that we did something wrong with him…. but what? Congratulations on your sons Archie ENT’s, I’d just like to know what the magic ingredient is.
Cynthia
How do I follow you in Facebook? I’m going to a hard time with my 21 year old and your situation gave me hope.
Teresa Nicholson
I am a mother of a son that is addicted to drugs and no one in the family wants to help me with him talk to him about it o did once and he got angry said hurtful things to me that still hurt this day hes not my son anymore hes someome else and it hurts me so bad I stay upset and depressed all the time and no one understands me why I let him get to me but it does I love him and I’m his mom I suppose to be able to fix things he takes advantage of .my mom money and she doesnt see it it I don’t know what to do it have anyone that understands
TWLOHA
Hi Teresa,
We’re truly sorry that you are struggling with your son’s addiction and finding a way to help him through this. We’re glad that you care and want him to get better, but we know how difficult it can be to offer support to someone who may not be accepting of it. Would you please email our team at [email protected] so we can better understand your situation and hopefully reply back to you with some resources and encouragement?
With Hope,
TWLOHA
Traci
I love that your story has a happy ending! Would you please let me know what you did to help your son get clean and out of depression? I am so scared and worried about my 26 year old son
TWLOHA
Hi Traci,
Although we aren’t professionals, please know that you are welcome to email the TWLOHA team at [email protected] if you are in need of resources, support, or just some encouragement for you or your son. We would be honored to help in any way.
With Hope,
TWLOHA
Elizabeth
Thank you I just told my son today if he overdosed o want to be burried in the same coffin….he is 14 I want him better or dead to stop the pain
Stephen
Inspirational story, thank you for posting. I literally put in google “ My sons depression and addiction has made me depressed “just because that’s how I feel. So they send me your story . Hey Google got that one right. Thanks
Norma
We have watched our 24 year old son decline for the past few years. Last weekend he was on the floor high for 4 days. We were lost and felt so overwhelmed. We still do not know where this will take us but last night he said he wants help. He needs help. Anxiety has gripped him so bad and he can not breathe from it so heroin takes that away. I have never prayed so hard in my life. At this point I would lay down my own life for him to stop suffering. I would love to know how you coped and got through this.
TWLOHA
Norma,
We are so sorry to hear that your son is struggling with addiction and anxiety, but we are so glad to know that he has a supportive mother supporting him. It’s amazing to hear that he wants to seek help. Would you email our team at [email protected] so we can provide you and your son with some local resources? We would be honored to help as best we can.
With Hope,
TWLOHA
HSA
Hi Dean,
Very impressive blog. I had exactly the same experience with my son. I am a single mother, and I started having extreme anxiety and depression that is consequently affecting negatively my performance at work!! Can i get your email or phone no. to get some advices that may help me overcome this situation.
Tri and Shona
Thank you for sharing your struggle and encouragement. We are in a really tough season of life with our oldest son who is 19. We have faith and will not give up,
Therese Palmer
How did you do it? Help please
TWLOHA
Hi friend,
Would you email us at [email protected] so we can learn more about what you’re facing and provide you with some encouragement and support? We would be honored to help you as best we can.
With Hope,
TWLOHA
Jennifer Lawrence
This is making me cry non-stop as this is currently what I have just started with my own 15 year old son, and there seems to be no ideal way to handle this without setting him off and maybe pushing him too far. Please let me know if you have blog entries or other stories further explaining the steps you did take to help him overcome this. My son is only four months in with his alcoholism, 8 months in with drug addictions and depression, but it has taken over all of our lives already. I suffer from anxiety and depression myself and am a single mother so I need any and all advice possible. Thank you for the story, though, as it gives some hope that we can overcome this.
TWLOHA
Hi Jen,
We are so sorry to hear that your son is struggling with addiction. You can find more blog entries about addiction here: https://twloha.com/blog/topics/addiction/ You can also email us at [email protected] for more support and resources. We would be honored to hear from you.
With Hope,
TWLOHA
Dean Ribando
This story fit my family’s lives. We’ve asked him time and time and the answer was I can’t explain it I came to conclusion four months ago that its time to seek professional help. He is in detox for the first day today and Im up looking at any info to save my son . He is my first born Dean after me. Your story is what I needed for extra strength. Thanks for sharing your story.
Larry R Bergman
This is so good to hear and reassuring on many levels. I needed to hear this again asi have heard it before
Farrah
Very nice story … pls let me know how did he get clean
What did you all do ?
Anita
Hello, I’m going thru the same with my son at this time, my son will be 25 yrs in January and has been in & out of rehabs. He tells me he’s been unhappy since the age of 10 and how he hates his family. I and his siblings have been battling in trying to support him, talking to him and even arguing with him in making changes for himself. How did your son get better, I need to see my son better, happy again, working and enjoying life? I love my son so much and only want the very best for him.
TWLOHA
Anita,
We are truly sorry to hear that your son is dealing with addiction. We are glad that he has support from you and the rest of the family, that’s huge, but we also know that isn’t easy. If you could email us at [email protected], we would like to offer you some resources, support, and encouragement. Hope to hear from you soon.
With Hope,
TWLOHA
Sung
I hope my son ( 18 years old ) get over hard time,, but I don’t know how can I help him. He got OCD anxiety depression ,( for a while more than 3 years)he went to uni and he got support from uni , he takes a medication but not really help so he decided to take marijuana and drink , play games and surfing phone..he did self harm often . . 2year ago his friend did suicide after that get worse… how we can help him we don’t want to loose him so I can’t say any negative mention …i try to keep positive maybe all drug help him calm down and stop thinking about suicide really sad …. how can we support him
TWLOHA
Hi there,
We are truly sorry to hear that your son is struggling with OCD, anxiety, depression, and self-harm. Please know that he is not alone in his struggles, and neither are you in your effort to help him through these challenges. He is fortunate to have someone who cares for his well-being. We would be honored to hear more from you and to offer you some encouragement and potential resources. Would you email our team at [email protected] so we can connect in more detail? Hope and help are real, and your son deserves to find both.
With Hope,
TWLOHA
Teresa Mordoh
Thank you for this post – it’s just what I needed to hear as my son is struggling with addiction depression and anxiety and good news stories are few and far between.
Linda Johns
Thank for your encouraging and inspirational Blog. I stumbled across it looking for help.
My son is 35 and a functioning addict, alcohol and weed, with depression and anxiety.
He talks about wanting to be sober, that’s as far as we get. He is not reliant on me financially. He has seen a few therapists over the years. I feel so alone as I have no I idea how to encourage him to start his recovery. I’ve suggested we start with AA and or find a therapist.
Do you have any advice for me to get this started.
TWLOHA
Hi Linda,
Thank you for reaching out and sharing a little bit about your son and your concern. We’re glad you are wanting to find avenues and ways to help him receive help and find healing — he deserves both. Would you email us at [email protected] so we can learn some more about the situation and do our best to offer you resources, support, and encouragement?
With Hope,
TWLOHA
Angeline
Thank you for this blog. I love hearing stories like this my hope becomes stronger. Your absolutely right going through these trials changes you. You do become more compassionate and you love bigger. I also wish things would of turned out the way we imagined them. But at the end of the day God is good he makes all thing good for those who love him. I will continue to hope and to love harder and to be there for those who are hurting. 💜💜💜
Jane Mack
Awesome post, prayers for continued good health. You give encouragement, & hope, to others‼️
Jim’s Mom 4-25-79 to 3-28-16 Fenytal OD
Rachel Ayala
How can we get there. We need help so desperately.
TWLOHA
Rachel,
Would you email our team at [email protected] so we can learn more about your situation and offer you some support and help? It would be our honor.
With Hope,
TWLOHA
sharon G
Thank you for your story. It makes me feel like we still have a shot, as my daughter also struggles with addiction and depression. I really needed to hear that there is still hope.
Latrice
Thank you for sharing your story. I going to hold onto Hope for my daughter who is battling with addiction. May God continue to bless you and your family.
Jennifer Jordan
Thank you for this. My son is 16 is in residential treatment, dual diagnosis – drug and alcohol addiction and depression and anxiety disorder. Some nights I’m overwhelmed with sadness and worry for the unknown.
TWLOHA
Hi Jennifer. Thank you for finding the courage to share. We’re glad you found these words and if you want to read more about this topic, we invite you to visit https://twloha.com/find-help/help-by-topic/addiction/. Your son is facing some truly challenging things, but we are grateful to know he has you. We hope you can extend support and care to yourself as well during this time.
April
Thank you for sharing your experience, really informative and helpful. Addiction treatment is never that easy you really need some support from the people around you. This piece is such an enlightenment really appreciate you sharing how you were able to handle it.
Mirella Vari
Very happy and blessed for your son’s recovery. I have a son who also is depressed and an addict. Its so hard to live a normal life.
TWLOHA
Mirella,
Thank you for sharing. We are so sorry to hear that your son is facing depression and addiction. We’re glad he has someone supporting him, but we know this can be a difficult thing for loved ones to carry. As you show up for your son, we hope you’ll reach out for support, too. You can email our team at [email protected] if you’d like to share more or to receive support, encouragement, and resource options.
With Hope,
TWLOHA
Heather
Thank you for sharing this. I’m currently in this scenario and all I feel is fear. I’m terrified about what will happen next, how we’ll handle it, etc. I’m also questioning my own strength because I’m worn out and just sad. So sad.
TWLOHA
Your fear and sadness are beyond valid, Heather. Amidst processing and acknowledging those feelings and emotions, may you also find hope. Hope for recovery. Hope for healing. Hope for things to get better. Throughout, though, please recognize your own boundaries and the moments when you need to take care of yourself as well.
We are here to listen and to help connect you to resources whenever. You can reach out to us at [email protected].
Angel morales
This has gave me hope. Thank you for sharing your story. My son struggles as a heroin addict. At 28 it’s been heartbreaking and ongoing. Iam always looking for hope and to encourage him. He has 3months clean now and everyday is a struggle. Thank you for your honesty as a father. Your son is lucky to have you.