Redefining Success in Order to Stay Alive
I lived on a hamster wheel, in constant fear that I would lose everything I had earned if I dared to stop and take a break.
Topic: suicidal ideation
The Story Of My Life
The story of my attempted suicide wasn't the entire story of my life...
Recovery Doesn’t Have an Expiration Date
Suicidal thoughts and self-harm urges do not define me. The ups and downs of my recovery do not define me. The worry that I'm disappointing my family does not define me.
There May Not be a Cure but There Is Hope
I stuttered, “I…I’m suicidal.” I nearly passed out as those words fell from my lips.
Love to Live
It’s hard to look back to those moments when I truly did not want to live. It’s difficult to admit you’ve had an honest desire to end your life.
You Are Not Your Thoughts
I’m no stranger to suicidal ideation. I hate calling it that, because it sounds so much more intense than what I feel, which is a passive wish to no longer exist.
Rainy Days and Dark Nights
None of this is easy, but it is worth it.
Before and After Depression
How you feel right now is not your forever.
The Will to Live
It’s time to start reminding ourselves why we’re alive in the first place, and what good can still come even in the midst of our darkest moments.
Here I Stand
Unweighted and unassuming, here I stand.
No Longer a Punchline
Nearly every day, I imagine the many ways in which I could die. Or I list off, in my head, the reasons why I should be dead.
For My Sanity
I learned how to call the hotline on my own. I learned how to Google the names fallen and the sites to go to for help and the cues to look for by myself.
