Restarting the Recovery Clock
I watched those ten years on my recovery clock decrease back down to zero. It felt as though every bit of hard work that I’d sewn into my recovery had been undone.
Topic: eating disorder
Pregnancy and Eating Disorder Recovery
Pregnancy is a demanding process, but it’s also nearly enough to trigger a recovered anorexic like me into a frenzy.
Sobriety, Introspection, and the Problem With Resolutions
Most of my "ideals" or things folks call "resolutions" around this time of year aren't actually what I want for myself but are what I assume others want for me.
The Holiday Season Doesn’t Equate to Just One Feeling
We’re taught and encouraged to feel and honor a single emotion when the holiday season is upon us.
Learn Through The Loving
I was right, in a way, about the day the elevator opened: I could never go back again.
The Next Right Thing
My stomach is full, which feels wrong, but I know it’s not.
The Day I Stopped Eating
I knew then that things would never be the same from that point forward: the anorexia as resistance, the depression as loss of control, the fleeing to another country as delusion, the dying and then not dying and then dying and then not dying.
You Have Not Seen Everything That You Will Ever See
Depression Isn’t A Personality Trait
Depression is not a bad part of my personality or a flaw in my character.
How Running Helped Heal My Eating Disorder
Amidst all the things I couldn’t control, there before me was something I could: my weight.
Healing My Relationship With Food
When Your Eating Disorder Doesn’t Have a Name
My eating disorder looks quiet to the outside world.
